My busy week!

Monday was my 31st birthday. Oddly, I was really happy to turn 31! 30 was such a terrible, terrible year, I couln't wait to be done with it! Since I celebrated my birthday with my dad last Wednesday and the rest of my family on Sunday, Beth, Chloe, and I went to O'Charley's for dinner. It was my first time there and I thought it was really good! I will definitely go back there! We got martinis in celebration...me a hptnotic ocean breeze, and her a cotton candy martini. It was a very nice, unexpected bday dinner with my bff and my God daughter.

Tuesday was a very long day of work. I then went to the mall to get my eyebrows waxed. (Gotta look good for my party!) Of course I was bright red for the rest of the day and into Wednesday, but the pain is totally worth it!

On Wednesday my goal was to get up and go to church at 7 am. As soon as my alarm went off, I knew I wasn't going. I was working another 10 hour day but I told myself that it is Ash Wednesday and I should really go. Not to mention I needed to put my money into the collection to prove I was there. So after work, I went to the 7:00 pm mass. I hadn't been to an Ash Wednesday service since college, but it actually was nice to go, not only for my spirituality, but for the purpose of refreshing my memory of what Ash Wedesday is about. Maybe this Lenten season is the perfect time for me to reflect on things and what I need to do to become a better person. We were born from dust, and we will become dust. Hopefully before then, I will get my life in order, haha.

Today I went back to the neurologist for a check-up. Originally I was going to have to get blood taken, but since I've been seizure-free since the summer and have had no problems with the medication, he didn't think I needed to. My insurance changed and I now have to pay a ridiculous amount of money for my medication! I mentioned this to Dr. Huang and he told me that since my case was mild, it would be ok to switch to a generic...yay!! So, I am thrilled that I don't have to break my bank account paying for my medication! Unfortunately due to my weight gain, he said if I gained any more, I would have to get put on a higher dose of the medication. It's becoming frustrating because I just cannot seem to lose any weight. I don't eat too badly, I've been working out, but it just isn't going anywhere. My friend Beth is going to start weight watchers and I'm thinking about doing it with her to see if maybe that will work. She at least, has an excuse..she just had a baby a month ago! I, on the other hand, need to get on the ball. After the doctor, I got my hair cut and highlighted. I love the color but think I am going to go shorter in a few months. The only reason I keep it long is for Brian...eventually he will have to deal with me having shorter hair!

Tomorrow I meet with Father Kraker about changing parishes. I am excited to meet him and hope it is the right fit. I am off work all day and then will be going to Brian's tomorrow night and preparing for my birthday party on Saturday! And, Jenny is coming home so we can finally celebrate Christmas #2! It should be a good weekend!

If I Could Turn Back Time

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to go back in time? What if you had the opportunity to go back and correct the mistakes you made...to have one more chance to do it all over again. Would you do it? What would you want to do differently? Would you have said sorry to someone that you hurt? Would you have told someone that you love them before it was too late? Would you have gone in a different path in life..perhaps gone to that school out of state you dreamt of, or settled down with your first love? Would you take more risks? Less risks? Would you have kept up with going to church? Spent more time with your family? Would you have changed your eating habits? Exercise habits? Would you have appreciated your family more and the sacrifices your parents made for you? Would you have been more careful who you hung out with? Would you have been more choosy about the people you dated? Would you have accepted yourself for the wonderful person that you are?

There are so many "what ifs" to consider in life. What if I did this, or what if I would have done that? For me in particular, there are quite a few "what ifs." If you know me, you probably know what those "what ifs" are. But then again, maybe you don't.

It is hard not to dwell on the past sometimes, but sometimes when you think about it, it makes you realize what you need to do in the future. If anything, I have learned from the mistakes that I have made in my younger days. And, maybe I'm a better and stronger person because of it. I think now more than ever I have learned what I need to do to make myself happy. Ten years ago, or even five years ago, I had no clue what life was about or what my role in it was. But now, because of the "mistakes" I made, I have learned so many things that I may not have known had I not made these "mistakes."

We all have done things in life that we regret. The important thing is that you move forward. And learn from your mistakes.