This Blog was actually written awhile ago, but I found it as I was going through old Blogs. Please do not email me or call me to tell me you are worried about me because I can assure you that I am fine. I find that I feel better about things when I write them down..it's almost therapy in a way. That being said, here are some of my thoughts...so enjoy!
I'm not going to sugar-coat this blog. It is what it is and I am what I am. Why am I the way I am? Read on.
I went to school and got my education. I did not get married at 20. I did not have multiple children by multiple fathers. I tried to be responsible. I worked many jobs. I searched for many jobs. I got rejected by many jobs. I had bad relationships. I let it get to me too much. I still let it get to me.
I'm angry that all this time has gone by and I still am not where I want to be in life. I'm angry that I cannot get a break. I'm angry that I get walked all over every day. I'm angry that I can't get what I want...just once. I'm angry that I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm angry that I can't live with my boyfriend..yet. I'm angry that I have no money, yet I rarely go shopping for myself. I'm angry that my stress level is so high I am starting to worry about my health. I'm angry that I have no energy. I'm angry that people don't understand.
I want to move out and be on my own! I want that dream house! I want my credit card paid off! I want to get married and have kids! I want a job that I like and that pays well. I deserve this and so much more.
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