Our luck has to turn around soon--UPDATES!!

This Blog was actually written awhile ago, but I found it as I was going through old Blogs. Please do not email me or call me to tell me you are worried about me because I can assure you that I am fine. I find that I feel better about things when I write them down..it's almost therapy in a way. That being said, here are some of my thoughts...so enjoy!

I'm not going to sugar-coat this blog. It is what it is and I am what I am. Why am I the way I am? Read on.

I went to school and got my education. I did not get married at 20. I did not have multiple children by multiple fathers. I tried to be responsible. I worked many jobs. I searched for many jobs. I got rejected by many jobs. I had bad relationships. I let it get to me too much. I still let it get to me.

I'm angry that all this time has gone by and I still am not where I want to be in life. I'm angry that I cannot get a break. I'm angry that I get walked all over every day. I'm angry that I can't get what I want...just once. I'm angry that I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm angry that I can't live with my boyfriend..yet. I'm angry that I have no money, yet I rarely go shopping for myself. I'm angry that my stress level is so high I am starting to worry about my health. I'm angry that I have no energy. I'm angry that people don't understand.

I want to move out and be on my own! I want that dream house! I want my credit card paid off! I want to get married and have kids! I want a job that I like and that pays well. I deserve this and so much more.

Tell-tale signs you are no longer in your 20's

1. You pull muscles in your back doing every day activities...like tying your shoes!
2. You start to look at people who are not "30 or over" just a little differently.
3. You are paranoid at every little ache and feel the need to make appointments for needless things.
4. You are asked by your doctor, "So...do you plan on having kids in the near future?"
5. You go to bed early each night, yet wish you could go to bed even earlier but don't want to get made fun of.
6. You laugh at all the girls who look like clones of each other and are glad you are out of that phase of your life.
7. You get carded, and instead of getting annoyed, you are excited!
8. You learn to appreciate your family history and want to learn more about it.
9. You have friends that are a decade younger than you. And a decade older.
10. You learn to appreciate your curves (women only!) and aren't jealous of the skinny little girls anymore.
11. Think coffee and converation are the greatest thing ever!
12. You really need to whiten your teeth.
13. You find random gray hairs and it ruins your day.
14. You are not quite sure where to shop for clothing..juniors or old lady?
15. A fun night is making dinner, having a few drinks, and cuddling on the couch with the love of your life. Who needs to go out??

Amy is 30! Ok, I have accepted it!

So, I've been avoiding my blog. I had a little trouble accepting the fact that I had actually turned....30! So, by not writing about it, it was easier to pretend that it wasn't true. Well, it's almost been a month since I hit the big 3-0. And I think that now, I have finally accepted the fact. I AM 30!!!

I actually had an AWESOME birthday. It started off with celebrating with my cousin Andy since we were born three days apart. We had a delicious dinner with our family and even went out afterward! We couldn't believe the day had actually come after talking about it for so long. But, alas, there it was.



The following weekend, my family had a "fiesta" for me! My mom made a ton of food, Katy made a video for me (Aunt Dot style), and we karaoked and drank WAY too much Jose Cuervo. Everyone sang and we all had a great time!!







Finally, the following weekend, Brian threw me a "beach party!" It was fun hanging out with all my friends. And, my little brother even made an appearance! Everyone dressed for the beach and we enjoyed music, food, and beverages!








Celebrating my 30th turned into a month-long celebration. I'm actually a little sad it's come to an end. I guess I get to look forward to my 40th next. Oh joy.

Time to get my health under control!

Today I had to get an ultrasound...it was a rather unpleasant procedure, but a necessary one. I've been having pains in my stomach for a few months now and my doctor advised me that it would be a good idea to get one done. So, being the worrier that I am, I figured that I should get it done to make sure there was nothing seriously wrong. Much to my relief, the doctor told me that everything was perfectly fine! I was very happy to hear that. She told me that it could be my colon that is causing the pain, which I also suspected could be the problem. I'm not going to go into detail all of my stomache issues, but it has been going on for a while now. My brother Mike suffers from ulcerative coltis, and there are many other members of my family who have problems with their stomache. So, I made an appointment with my brother Mike's doctor to get checked out in a few weeks since he knows my family's history. I really hope he figures out what is wrong with me!

I just subscribed to a magazine called "Natural Health" and my dad got me a subscription to "Women's Health" for my birthday. I'm hoping reading these will help me get on track. My mom told me yesterday that she's going to buy me an annual membership to the gym...awesome!! I think that I have fallen off the wagon this past year, which could account for many of the problems I'm having now. Hopefully with reading about how to be healthy, working out, and eating better I will start to FEEL better!

Wish me luck in my quest to get healthy again!

More Resolutions...

1. Stop leaving half drank water bottles in my car...I am constantly having to throw out perfectly good water. It's so wasteful!!

2. Stop being a slob and clean up after myself, whether its at Brian's house or my mom's house. So far, I'm doing better!

3. Try to keep track of all of my stuff and not lose it..(bills, magazines, keys, you know..)

4. Drink less coffee.

5. Whoops, that last one was a mistake.

6. To not be jealous of all the buff, fit people out there and actually get off my butt and do something about it.

7. To use my golf clubs more than twice this year!

8. Experiment with a different hair color.

9. Try not to be so OCD at work. I think I get on people's nerves...oh well!

10. Realize that if I'm not in bed at 10 every night, it's ok cause I'm not working two jobs anymore!

11. Instead of skipping over every little thing I like, to buy myself something every once in awhile! A new purse maybe????

12. To be more chipper in the morning.

13. Again, that last one was a mistake cause it will NEVER happen!

14. To go out and be stupid with my friends more...don't really get to do that anymore.

15. To stop listening (or not listening) to what others say and to realize that I ROCK!!!

Christmas and New Year's pics!

Some ramblings

After being off work since Christmas Eve, the time has come where I must get back to the real world. I go back to work tomorrow, January 5th. As much as I enjoyed my time off, I'm actually looking forward to seeing my co-workers and kids again. But, it is going to be hard to be back into the swing of things. Since I've been on vacation, my whole "schedule" has been off. For example, my eating has kind of gotten out of control. The reason for this is that I have nothing to do, but hang out, so that gives me good reason to eat. Secondly, I have to get used to going to bed early, and getting up early. Last night I went to bed around 2 and got up at 11! Doesn't help the fact that my boyfriend is a night owl and I've spent pretty much my whole vacation at his house!! I do, actually like to have somewhat of a schedule and that will re-start again tomorrow! It HAS to!

Now that being said, like everyone, I'd like to start the year fresh..with healthy eating, exercise, and being around people who make me feel good about myself....speaking of that...

I was actually really bummed after Christmas...and I'm not exactly sure why. My dad said I had the "Post-holiday blues." I think he was right. It's funny how being around certain people can alter your mood and view of yourself... How is it that in the span of two nights, I went from feeling bad about myself, to feeling GREAT about myself? I went from being ignored and pushed aside to being surrounded by people who wanted to talk to me, and were actually interested in what I had to say. I went from feeling like a poor, insignificant girl to feeling like a queen. I know that I haven't lived in other states and countries, and may seem boring to some people, but that does not mean I should just be ignored. I'm a friendly person, who, believe it or not, has a very interesting life and a lot of friends. One of my resolutons for 2009 is to ignore people like that and realize that if people are like that, then it is their loss and I should focus my time on more important things. As my dad says, "Be less affected, and more effective." The bottom line is, I am choosing not to be around people who treat me like that anymore. I'm choosing to be around people who like me for me. People who don't care that I have lived in Cuyahoga Falls my whole life, or have not found that good job yet, or am still living with my mom. If you don't like me, it is your loss.